My start

Dear friend

What has been happening to me lately. Well, I feel like crap . I am trying to turn the page on so many things but it comes back to haunt you. I am so very unhappy, unhealthy and unloved. My mother told me once, that she had never seen me happy. At the time, I got very upset at her but now, I am mad because she was so right.

My dream of becoming a MOM happened. The aspect of my life totally suck. I am fed up of the shouting, the fighting and the un-love in this house. I feel like I should leave but I am not strong enough for that. I want my children to have a father in their lives and I mean in the same house-lives. So I carry on with a fake facade and weep inside.

I have created this place for refuge. To come and pour out my feelings. And by doing so, I hope to see and understand the path I need to go. I am looking for guidance and answers and I know that the only was to do this, is on my own.

I will be back